Thursday, December 19, 2013

soul talking

Pumpkin spice tea and a big chocolaty was a rough day so I pulled out the big guns.  The even bigger gun was pajama pants which I put on as soon as I got home. 

I'd be lying if I said this whole month has not been a rough one for me.  Some nonsense about missing my family and feeling isolated.

My heart of hearts wants to sit with my sister and drink coffee and chat about life.  I want to go camping and hiking with my brothers.  I want to have lunch with my mom and my mother and father-in-law.  I want to window shop with my sisters-in-law.  I want to paint nails with my nieces.  My heart aches in the absence of these things.  Family is so important and that is not more evident than when you haven't seen your family in a year. 

It hurts in my soul.

Brownies make it feel better a little.


  1. O Eli. I'm crying because I could have penned every word of this post.
    Hang in there and hold onto His hope. Sometimes it's all we have when those we love most are so far away.
    Blessings and saying a prayer for you today.

  2. It's so hard to be away from your family at Christmas. You grow up with these special people and make memories and it's hard to be off on your own without your own people around to love on and laugh with!

    I hope the brownies helped!

  3. Eli, I love you... from the depths of my own pain, I love you!!!