...my two sons fight. They bicker. They compete. They get really angry sometimes. And I always feel like I'm the dam that holds back the torrent of water, standing solid against a flood of arguing.
Sometimes people in my house wake up grumpy. Goodness knows, I don't care to speak for the first hour of my day! But sometimes there are heart issues that rear their heads in those earlier hours of a morning.
And occasionally we are treated to an emotional rollercoaster by a member of the family. Sometimes that is me.
But I've learned that I really don't have the luxury or even the right to entertain a bad attitude within myself. I could be selfish and proclaim that my attitude affects no one but me but that is so far beyond false that I just don't buy it anymore.
As the wife and mom around here I hold a certain amount of influence. A lot of influence. I never asked for this responsibility but here I am holding the bag.
How I choose to behave (yes, it's choice) sets the tone for everyone around me. I am the thermostat choosing the temperature of my home, my family. If I wallow, they wallow. If I snarl and growl, they snarl and growl. If I am positive and kind, they follow in suit. My attitude can be either a bolster to those around me or a stumblingblock.
It's easy, oh so easy, to be lazy in this area. I don't want to be everyone else's cheerleader all the time! I want to be able to yell "THIS SUCKS AND I DON'T WANT TO DO IT ANYMORE!!!"
I am the wife and the mom, and that man and those children trust in me. And more importantly I'm a child of God and He has called me to do what is right.
So I suck it up when I don't want to, and I pray that my heart is changed when bad attitudes settle in so that there isn't a "don't want to" but instead an honest desire to do right by my family.
A merry heart doeth good like a medicine: but a broken spirit drieth the bones.
Blessed is the people that know the joyful sound: they shall walk, O Lord, in the light of thy countenance. In thy name shall they rejoice all the day: in thy righteousness shall they be exalted.
Who can find a virtuous woman? for her price is far above rubies...her children arise up and call her blessed; her husband also, and he praiseth her.
Proverbs 31: 10 and 28