It's just not possible to put into words the growth I have experienced in my heart of hearts over the past 6 months. I think I've done more growing and learning and expanding in this short time than over the past 5 years combined. Just today, talking with my eldest son about this very thing, he said he could see the difference in me. It is a visible change. I am happy. I am free. And it has been a very long time, if ever, since I have felt this way.
I can't attribute this happiness to any one thing. The growth just a natural effect of many changes I implemented in my life over the course of almost two years now. But this summer especially, when I went hiking in the woods almost everyday, I regained perspective. The bird song and the sunshine, the trees and insects, they helped me to untangle the mess of thoughts and emotions that were tangling me up like a trapped animal. I met up with myself again somewhere on those trails.
Pursuing yoga teacher training has been a game changer too. It pushed me outside of everything I've ever known, caused me to think outside the box, but also to delve deeply into the things I allow in my life.
Somewhere along the journey I realized that what you put out into the world, you get back. In the way of karma or energy or just kindness. This is subtle or blunt. This is little or big. This is tangible and intangible. Whatever the capacity it takes on, it has proven true over this last little bit for me. The more good I emit, by way of a smile or an act of kindness, a compliment, or an act of pure service, these things find their way back to me time and time again. But the thing is, I'm not thinking about what might return, I'm just so joy-filled and peaceful that what shines out of me tends to be the same.
I don't know how else to say it. I'm truly happy. I made life changes. I implemented some things. I decided to pursue joy and here I am living this amazing dream. One day last week I had just the best day. I completed a real estate photography session then went down to the marina and took photos just because they were pretty. I went to a coffee shop to study for a while and that night I got to teach some yoga. Like seriously, how could a day be better???
Recently, I had a choice to make. Option #1 would be a good business decision, make me a little money and was really the expected choice. Option #2 was a pure heart choice, led by a desire to give of myself without expectation of anything in return. I rolled these options around for a week or two and went with option #2. And you guys, it came back to me in the biggest way possible!! I'll give more details at a later date but I'll tease you with this, I have to get a passport.
So, in short (or in long really), put all of your best into the world. Give of your heart to the people around you. Smile at strangers. Be nice to animals. Treat yourself well. Love. Live. Enjoy the sunshine. Just BE and allow light to shine through you.
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